That Was A Good One…

Happy Muthafuckin’ Tuesday EDIT: Thursday folks! Tuesday was actually the last day on the show ‘Casual’ that I was working on. I attempted to post this on Tuesday but I found no time. Monday I got home a bit too late and Tuesday at work I was just soaking up as much of the energy and good vibes from everyone around that I just didn’t want to waste any time typing. Continue reading “That Was A Good One…”

The Toke Talking Podcast Episode 61

Yo! Come check out The Toke Talking Podcast Episode 61 NOW! This week I go on about the Playoffs, Eminem, the term “Witch Hunt” and I introduce a new segment called “I don’t do politics…” (Which means I’m definitely going to talk about Shit Hole Trump and politics). Come have a laugh and listen to me ramble for a bit.


Only In The Movies…

Happy Tuesday everyone! How is the week treating you thus far? I was off yesterday and spent most the day decorating for the Christmas holiday. I played loud Christmas music for about 3 hours and started laying the ground work. Continue reading “Only In The Movies…”

Lunchtime Nap Scout…

Happy Muthafuckin Wednesday….that definitely does not work. It doesn’t have the same ring to it as Friday. I thought I’d give it a try. I’m a little a behind this week and I apologize. This post is usually already up but the delay of my ┬áPodcast (The Toke Talking Podcast) along with some needed sleep, derailed everything else. Continue reading “Lunchtime Nap Scout…”

Stuck In This Cave

I been stuck in this cave,

trying to find my way out

see a light at the far end,

but it keeps moving further out

I hear monsters around me,

growling and breathing

the clouds are weeping,

the sins are reaping

the smell of pain and regret,

is overflowing and seeping

into the fabric of the dirt,

my only weapon is the hurt

I use it like a chisel,

scraping against the rocks

trapped from within,

blood filling up in my socks

blisters forming,

been here for a thousand mornings

I’m screaming loud,

outside I hear a crowd

but nobody hears me,

the beast is closing in

its right behind me,

I can feel it’s tongue on my skin

I’m clawing my way out,

fingernails crack and snap

the agony’s unbearable,

but I can never look back

everything is pitch black,

I can feel it’s almost over

but then I look up,

and the lights gettin closer

gotta find what I got left,

and fight through it

when they all say you can’t,

that’s when you gotta fuckin do it

finally I reach the end,

exhausted and almost dead

because this is what it’s like,

getting depression out of your head

Is It A Power Thing…

Happy Tuesday!! How is everyone on this fabulous day? It’s currently Monday in my world and I’m working over at Warner Brothers today in Burbank. It’s a little warm out here for October and I’m not a fan….I actually would love a fan…Hmmm. Tomorrow however I’m working in Simi Valley and I have a 530am calltime. Continue reading “Is It A Power Thing…”

To Drink or Not To Drink


Happy Friday! I know this is extremely late..a day late. It’s been a while since I miss a post and I apologize everyone but I was off yesterday and slept in during the morning. Then I hung out with a friend of mine that came into town for the weekend. How was everyone’s work week? Did you have decent hours or are you once again contemplating leaving this crazy business and getting a normal 9-5 job? I’ve actually become amused at how some of us start to look at normal day-to-day jobs in a different light after working in the industry for a while. I was chatting with an A.D the other day that was talking about possibly just becoming a car salesman. I think he should do it. I’ve always said that you should follow your happiness wherever it takes you. It’s good friday today…that means nothing to me really but I’m sure it does to some people out there. My plan was to write this up Thursday night but then towards the end of the night word spread on set that we were all going to a bar after work for some drinks and shenanigans. This is actually what this entire post is about so let’s get into this shall we?

After work drinks. It’s a tradition that I know most businesses engage in but one that I don’t feel is as common in the film industry. Now it’s not that we don’t do it but I think a lot of people in our business always claim to be too tired to go out after work and with good reason. We do work crazy fucking hours at times. I know those that have family will most likely not come out for after work drinks but if you’re not married and don’t have kids..I mean why not right? Unless you don’t like going to bars or you don’t like the people you work with are all also valid excuses. I think it is good for people who work together to have social gatherings outside of the work place. I feel it makes for better relationships once you get to know someone out of work. Especially since I have found that many people I work with are very different people once they call wrap.

 There’s a lot of people who put on this work front everyday for 12-13 hours. They pretend to be these focused, edgy almost rude person that seem to only care about getting the job done and getting back home. Then you go out with them for drinks and it’s all smiles, jokes and laughter. They seem outgoing and happy and just the total polar opposite of the person that you sat with at lunch that just looked at their food the entire time, didn’t talk to anyone and then just got up and went to take a nap before they called the company back in. I actually find it quite astounding that people can pull off being these 2 different people all the time. I mean I’m not the same exact person that I am in the outside world as I am at work but the differences are not as drastic as some people who I have hung out with. I’ve worked with people that I thought wouldn’t even dare have a drink only to find out outside of work that they not only love drinking but they’re also stoners. Point is you really don’t know someone till you’ve kicked it with them out side of the work atmosphere. I think a lot of us would work better alongside one another if we all shared a drink every now and then.

I’ve had several amazing nights out with crew members over the years. I have to say there really is nothing like it because just like we do when we go out on location we typically tend to take places over and shut them down. It really depends on the size of the group but if you get 15-20 crew members together in a bar and it’s sure to get a bit rowdy. I’m not going to lie at times I do think that we are being that annoying bunch of fucks that just can’t seem to keep it down at the bar but then I realize that we are not hurting anyone and everyone’s just having a good time. People get loud at times and if you go to a bar you should expect it. I’ve had nights out where we had actresses dancing on top of bars and pouring shots in peoples mouths, producers ordering 2 of every appetizer on the menu and smoking bud out of vape pens while we all sat in the middle of a semi full restaurant like it was legal. I’ve never had a night out after work with crew members that was a bad time and I just wish it would happen more. I constantly hear stories about the older days when that was more of the norm. I’ve only been in the game for 10 or so years but apparently back in the days at wrap everyone would drink while they wrapped out and would then go to a bar or something afterward. Apparently for insurance reasons drinking at wrap became frowned upon and so people stopped doing it as often. Granted I understand why it’s a safety hazard but this is my blog and I just want to bitch about it alright? HA! I’m just saying everyone, let’s try and have a little more fun out there. I know we work insane hours at times but if we don’t enjoy life every now and then what the hell are we working for so much?

Thanks for reading everyone! I’m sorry for the day delay on the post but I think you can understand and if you don’t well….I don’t know what to tell you. Please have an excellent long weekend for those of you that were off yesterday. Make sure to come back and check out my Toke Talking Podcast this and every Monday morning. Talk to you all next week!


Fraturdays and Vampires…´╗┐

WHATUP!!! Happy Friday everyone. Another week of film making magic in the can. That would’ve been a better pun if we still used film cans. I could go back and change it but that would require deleting everything, thinking of a new joke and in turn ruining the raw and rugged style of writing which I can only classify as the words of a lunatic asshole that doesn’t know how to write. Hmmm, New Tag Line for the website? Maybe… I actually never wanted to write. I wouldn’t consider myself a “writer”. Although after writing this thing now for a while I have kind of grown a little love for it. I can see how this could be entertaining for a living. Although the sitting at the desk all day would not be as fun. I can’t sit still for that long. Alright, let’s get into this shall we?

This week my roommates that also work in the industry like almost everyone else I know because this job consumes your life and doesn’t allow as much time to meet normal people were working nights. Yes, 4 days of night filming to be exact. Real quick, for those of you not in the circus at times we need to film certain scenes outside at nighttime and to accomplish this feat means that we shift our work hours. SO, we go to work about noon or 2PM, 4PM and then work our usual 12-13 hours. Which means that we end up getting home sometime in the early ass morning, sleep through the day and then wake up in the afternoon to go to work again. It is really a fucking insane toll on the mind and the more days you do the crazier it gets. My roommates call time today was the time that I wrapped on my show. We wrapped at 730PM. That means that these dudes won’t get home till 8-9 in the morning tomorrow. It’s really a surreal experience that jars your body every single time. It’s not only the sleep switch either. It’s also the times that we eat that Fuck with our bodies. Having dinner at 2-3 in the morning messes with my system every time so a lot of times I just won’t eat anything heavy which also is not good but I feel a little better.

Filming over nights is the reason that I do not understand how people work on shows like True Blood without going completely mad. I love the show. I was a die-hard fan of the entire series. Even towards the end where it got a little out of hand but I was there for the entire ride. However I don’t think I could ever work on a show like that. I can’t function waking up late like that for some reason. I have trouble with call times past 11PM let alone a 7PM call time. Don’t get me wrong I have done the all nighters. I’ve done a Fuck load of them, including that 23 hour music video that I talked about on here called “A Day and Night of Work...”. I remember someone I worked with once told me “You never take anything with Werewolves, Vampires or any monster that only lurks in the dark unless you want to forget what day is like.” Hahahaha. I’m not really a fan of the daytime, I like the nighttime better but I prefer to work in the morning hours.

It is fun though. I’m not going to sit here and tell you that I haven’t enjoyed working over night on some craziness before because Fuck yeah I have. I might bitch a lot on here but I always try to remind you all that I do love this business. I don’t think I’d ever want to do anything else. However I am all up for changing the hours a bit to match that of a regular job. But overnight jobs can be fun depending on one important factor, the crew. If you have a fun crew that likes to have a good time then overnights are never that bad because you enjoy each others company. The mix of delirious-ness and exhaustion can get a bit silly at times which brings on the giggles. Who doesn’t like the giggles?

I haven’t done many over nights in the last few years. Many of the shows I work on lately film very quickly and for the most part keep a 7-9am call time all week. Which is perfect. I think we all wish that would be the norm across the board. The most over night action I see now a day is the occasional Fraturday here or there. A Fraturday is the name we use when we know that we are going to be filming late on Friday causing it to slip into Saturday. In case you read this website and have zero idea about what I’m talking about. Is that an Industry term? I never remember hearing it before I got in the business. Anyone else have? There I go again asking questions to which I may never get an answer to. Alright enough ramble for me for today.

Thanks for reading everyone! I hope you all have a fantastic weekend full of shenanigans and fun. Please make sure to come back Monday Morning and check out The Toke Talking Podcast. It’s not all industry based but I do go on about work at times on there so you should check it out. I can’t write and talk about work all the time or I’d lose my fucking marbles people. Honestly today I almost finally wrote my first “Fuck It Friday” post that I keep saying I’m going to add-on here and never. I keep contemplating getting rid of the Friday industry post and going for a broader range of topics instead. Then I think I should just post them on their own day instead. Hmmmm..What do you guys think? Let me know in the comments. Take care all, talk to you next week!