Happy…

Happy Friday everyone! I had a 6AM calltime and not enough time to sleep AND write this thing up last night so..here I am mid afternoon finishing up. How are you doing? How was your week of work? Was it the last? Are you ready for a little Christmas/Holiday Vaca? I know I sure as hell am. I do have one more day of work on hold next week but I can only imagine that after that the town will go dark for a few weeks for the holidays as it has done since I’ve lived out here and worked in the business. If you’re not a fan of time off during the holidays then you may be suffering from “Scrooged”. It’s a virus that affects people who are unhappy with their lives during the holidays. Instead of giving into sadness this holiday season and just sitting home why don’t you try to go find some happiness with your time off. Happiness also doesn’t mean going on some extravagant vacation or buying some lavish expensive new car for yourself. It can be something as simple as going to your favorite restaurant with a good friend and having a chat. It can be helping someone you see pushing their car out of the street because it stalled. I didn’t think this would make me happy but I actually did this last night on the way home from work. As I was pulling onto my block there was  a guy pushing his car out of a really busy intersection and so I pulled over to the side, jumped out of my car and gave him a little assistance. His face when he said thank you honestly brought me one of those small moments of happiness. Many of us seem to think that money will bring us happiness but in reality it doesn’t have to cost you a dime. I think we all seem to forget how easy it is to find small bits of happiness everywhere in our everyday lives if we are constantly looking. I had a different topic when I started this post yesterday but I like the way this one is flowing so let’s call this another F.I.F post and get into this shall we?

The older I get the more I find satisfaction in my life by embracing and trying to appreciate all the small burst of happiness that despite all the terrible shit going on in the planet or in our personal lives just continue in the world around us. A perfect example of this is laughter. I have become obsessed with laughter and laughs in general over the last couple of years as a source of happiness. I love listening to people laugh, I love making people laugh and I love laughing myself. I mean who doesn’t? Who has ever said “I don’t like laughing.”? If anyone has ever uttered those words I honestly just feel bad for them. It makes everyone feel good and fill up with joy, what’s not to like? It’s impossible to stay angry while chuckling. Go ahead try it. Next time you’re upset about something go on youtube and watch your favorite funny video and try not to crack a smile. If you don’t have a go to funny youtube video DM me and I’ll send you some of mine. Back to what I was saying about appreciating the small spouts of happiness that life offers us, this is a big one to me. I try to start everyday with a laugh and from the minute I wake up I’m in search of that first good giggle. It may come in the form of waking up with my dog Munchie all up in my face snoring or with his butt resting warmly against my head. It may be my cat Angels long deep inner meow for food that always reminds me of when Marge from The Simpsons grunts. It may be something I watch on TV as I’m getting dressed that supplies me my first snicker of the day. Point is, I search that shit out EVERY DAY! It’s like my coffee in the morning which really doesn’t make sense in my life because I don’t drink coffee like that but I know most people do.

I wasn’t always this person that looked for happiness in random places like laughter before either. Honestly I remember being quite an asshole growing up and at times I even recall being bothered by others who seemed overly happy and joyful. I know now that it was just jealousy and I’m glad I was able to recognize that flaw in myself, in my character as a person because it helped me change. Once I realized that I was just being a stubborn asshole and suppressing my own joy and happiness I was able to let go of those negative feelings. Instead of being bothered by these content people I could now join them and feed off their energy and happiness as well. Happiness and good energy from people is very infectious but you have to let yourself be infected..I mean in a good way.

Thanks for reading everyone! Sorry for the delay on the post time but sleep must always come first, I’m old! HA! I hope you all have a fantastic weekend and if this was your last day of work, ENJOY THAT SHIT!! Have a great Christmas, Hanukkah, Vacation, Adventure..whatever you have going on. Go find some happiness. Go find some laughter. Be good to one another.

-PEACE

Escaping From A Dream

Escaping from a dream,

that the brain believes is real

physical functions react,

to the stress and pain your mind feels

stuck in the unconscious realm,

emotions break the surface

moon gazing in solitude,

lost in the maze of purpose

I’m seeing behind the design,

and it’s an uncontrolled circus

psychological warfare,

your thoughts are no longer your own

and there’s no way to really know,

if you’re the original or the clone

uncut fear; unable to scream,

memories of sleep paralysis

inside my icy cave I slide,

into the depths of my psychoanalysis

and I come out of it,

more fucked up than I was before

opening brain doors,

walking through just to explore

you can alter the physical,

but you can’t change the inner core

I am the grotesque mental gore,

that i just vomited on your floor

Rhyme tissue and syllable matter,

analyze the ink splatter

reaching new heights,

one last rung on the ladder

I’m the nastiest roach in your house,

light don’t make me scatter.

Working In The Elements…

Happy Friday! How is everyone on this fine day? I’m fucking pumped that it’s Friday because I worked all week. I know you may just be like “So?” but I haven’t been working 5 days a week lately and when I do I realize that I don’t miss it and that it’s not how I want the rest of my life to go. I’m not a fan of routine for too long and I think I’ve grown tired of the “Usual” 5 day work week. Continue reading “Working In The Elements…”

My Social Space…

Hello everybody! Welcome to We’re Not Rolling. I’m your want to be, trying to be…writer. I was wondering the other day does anyone ever come up to you and declare you a writer? Do you just declare yourself one? Or is it only official once you get paid for your stuff? Fuck if I know. HA! Continue reading “My Social Space…”

The Toke Talking Podcast Episode 20


Happy Monday Morning! Here’s Episode 20 of The Toke Talking Podcast. This week I sit down and ramble with a friend & coworker of mine Joe Carroll. In this episode we go on about The Walking Dead season 6 finale, working out in Nashville on “Nashville”, the new Power Rangers movie a whole lot more. If you work in the Film Industry you’ll definitely enjoy this one. I also talk to Joe about many of his projects past and present and about his book “Sinful Confessions” that you can buy on Amazon HERE. Come have a laugh now, it’ll be entertaining as you sit in traffic to or from work on another Monday Morning.

-PEACE