Happy Friday everyone! How are you? Is today your last day before the Christmas break? Were you on one of those “special” shows that made people work right up to 2 days before Christmas eve so that you have to now squeeze all your shopping into one day and pay the highest possible airline rate to fly back home? Sure they could have planned to take off a week before christmas but that would require actually giving a shit and being considerate with the employees that fuel this multibillion dollars and sadly some just don’t give a shit. They don’t live in a world where money is a problem so they don’t understand why our assistants couldn’t just buy our gifts for us while we were working and why airline prices are EVER an issue. I apologize if I’m in a bit of a shit mood before the happy holiday but that’s one of the reasons this blog exist and I have some shit to rant about so let’s get into this shall we?
As I mentioned before I won’t be traveling back to my childhood home of Miami this year for the holidays. It will only be the 2nd time in 12 years that I do not go back. The only other time I did not go back was because I wanted to have white christmas which is tough in Miami. I haven’t gone into specifics here on the blog as to why but the reason is because my loyalty fucked me. I planned my work around being loyal to a show and it bit me in the ass. I know, I know…I’m the one that is constantly preaching on here that loyalty in this business is bullshit and I yet I got caught being loyal. There can be no loyalty if money is involved. I’m not stating that I wasn’t brought back because of a money issue only that loyalty and a business in which money is being made can never coexist. A person can be loyal to their significant other, to their friends, to their family but business is business. If your boss asks you to be loyal you need to know that in no way does that mean that they plan on being loyal to you. Which just doesn’t work. It needs to go both ways. Basically what happen was that I worked on a show last year and was not brought back on this year. Now I know that work is never guaranteed in this business but I was caught off guard because I had NEVER not gone back to a show that was picked up for another season in which the department that I worked with was also invited back. I have worked on one show where the producer changed between seasons and so he brought in all his own people but I had never been a situation like this and it really pissed me off. At first I was a bit down about it because I really thought I did a great job for them and felt betrayed. There was a few weeks that I kept trying to figure out what I did wrong and even had a few ideas as to why. I realized they were ridiculous ideas once I came to my senses but I did think that maybe I had done something wrong. Then as time went on and shortly after I stopped by to visit everyone on the show I realized that they were the ones that screwed me over. I did nothing wrong. I worked my ass off for them…well as much as “working my ass off” means in my line of work and they chose not to bring me back for a reason that they could not even be honest about. I got really angry at the whole situation. It put me in a bit of a financial bind because it coincided with my car breaking down AND a slow summer of work. If you read the blog often you’d have read that I took some time off this summer to learn how to use Photoshop, Lightroom, After Effects and some other programs. I trusted that the show I had previously worked on would once again employee me so I didn’t stress out looking for too much work during this time. Then the show started up and I was given the terrible news.
What makes this situation worse is that I was offered 3 other shows during this time. One was over the summer and 2 would’ve been around the time that the one I thought I was going back on was taking place. I passed on all of them because I wanted to be loyal to the show that I had previously worked on. BIG MISTAKE! But how was I to know? While I have seen many people done wrong in this business personally it had never happen to me. I’m not even sure what happen to be honest because the excuse they gave me as to why I was not being invited back made very little sense. I honestly didn’t even know who made the final decision about me not returning but after my visit I had my suspects which made the situation worse because it made it even more confusing in my head as to why. However I know that at the end of the day it’s just work and that I will inevitably get past this mentally because it really is fucking with my mind state about this business. It’s just another one of those ugly, shitty parts about working in this industry which could be so much better if people actually cared about one another but money and egos ruin it all.
Thanks for stopping by and checking out another post here at We’re Not Rolling. I apologize for the bitterness of the post but I had to vent. It is very therapeutic. I hope you all have a great time off. ENJOY THAT SHIT!! Merry Christmas to everyone except those people who feel they were not about to say Merry Christmas before this year. I’d like to specifically wish you all a Happy Holiday instead you weirdos. I will be back next week with a NEW post and Podcast so make sure to check those out.